Just me & u!

Having moments of weakness does not mean that your without faith, it simply means your human. So often I become consumed in being strong, I start to believe the facade sometimes. Tears cleanse the soul and don't allude to weakness as much as it reminds us of the ability to connect with our emotions.

I can't lie, lately I've questioned myself...."are you doing something wrong?" I'm attempting to stay patient and faithful although it's hard being alone. Gotta remember there's a difference between alone & lonely! I know I wrote "don't allow your loneliness to consume you," but that's definitely easier said than done. It's f-'d up when you're forced into being solo, because the one you thought was for-ever wasn't even good enough for-now! One thing I won't do is settle....no need to!

All my dreams and aspirations for me and my fam (which includes a husband) are on the horizon. I'm so thankful that I came out of my past better and not bitter. Lord knows that couldve went the other way! My faitfulness is consistent and I will not withhold it because of my past. I understand that I was made this way for a reason & refuse to let ANYONE change me. I'm a great catch, so catch me if you can!:-)

Would've came back for you.....

Would've came back for you, I just needed time.....~Drake

One thing we all want more of is time. Over the years, I have grown to learn that EVERY moment is made to prepare you for what's next. You have to take advantage of this time, because you can never get it back! With faith, we believe that God doesn't make mistakes. In saying that, we are inadvertently saying that all things work together for the best (good or bad). With faith, comes the acknowledgement that you trust God. The trials & challenges of today are necessary for you to move into your purpose tomorrow. Your faithfulness amidst these challenges are what counts. We all acknowledge our faith in God, yet we will (in the same breath), discount our faith because we are attempting to understand things we can not.

Faith is - a strong belief in a supernatural power or powers that control human destiny. With faith, we have to give God the glory over all situations. For time spent (it can not be a waste), & for those that have wronged us(we must forgive). We must measure our lives not by the time spent but by our actions, growth and success!

Focus

As I continue on this journey I learn more and more about myself daily. Validation comes in many forms. Self,personal, professional, and spiritual to name a view. In dealing with the constant NEED for validation, it is easy to lose focus. My need to be "different" has been fueled for years by my insecurities. I can say now that my strength has come from moments like this. Moments where all i can do is turn to Him. There's strength in allowing yourself to be vulnerable. Some are more spiritual than others, however once you learn to communicate with God it becomes easy to hear HIM. We can choose to attempt to silence what we're hearing but it will become apparent in all that we do.
I've been struggling to find my purpose & praying for clarity often. As I begin to receive clarity, I became easily distracted with other, insignificant things or people. One by one God continues to remove the things out of my way (even when I didn't want to, or didn't view them as obstacles). He wants my attention & focus to be on my purpose.

One thing that I have to remember is that although we make choices, they simply determine how easy or hard it's going to be. Ultimately, my destiny has already been decided. So I bid good bye to the people & things that don't deserve my attention. I'm focused on my purpose & if that means I'm alone for a while then I'm truly ok with that!

As you were

It's amazing to me that sooo many people don't truly know themselves. They seek out certain qualities in others that they lack or don't understand. Someone who holds grudges seeks out someone who is forgiving. Someone who is a cheater seeks out someone who is faithful. Generally, there's nothing wrong with this! The problem presents itself when people choose to accept the bad qualities without question. I know several divorced "twenty-something" women. My initial response was of course "those no good men!" After further thought, I realized I knew several happily married "twenty something" women. What do I believe is the difference between 1 group & the other? Simply put it's knowing your self worth, accepting nothing less & not letting ANYONE tell you that you're worth less (worthless)! I understand now where I went wrong! Not saying that the things that went wrong in my marriage were totally my fault, but I do assume responsibility for not demanding the respect I deserve & choosing to be content in my comfort zone instead of challenging those questionable behaviors! Everything comes down to choice, responsibility, & consequences! Choose wisely, assume responsibility, and accept the consequences for those decisions (good or bad). We have to embrace the lessons that are presented out of every situation. And remember no trial in life is meant to leave you "as you were!"

I sin too!

Really feeling some kind of way right now. I had to learn to be forgiving, humble, meek, & non-judging! Right-wrong, good-bad, gay-straight, sex-abstinence, honesty-lies! All of these things come down to choices! Everyone must remember that every decision you've made in your life hasn't been the right one & we've all been falsely accused of something! Either way what would've happened if the people closest to you (the ones that really knew you) didn't believe you or believe in you! I said initially I was feeling some kind of way- I believe I'm feeling genuine disappointment in this world once again. Just because I don't agree with you, doesn't give me the right to judge. I sin too! (& so do you) love y'all!

Friends.....how many of us have them?!

Often enough, the message you share with others; is the same message your own heart so desperately needs to hear. "Don't allow your loneliness to consume you, continue to be faithful, stay consistent".....all are phrases I utter without a second thought to friends when in need. It means the world when friends no when to say it back. Sometimes God will move someone out of your life, to make room for someone else. Other times He'll move them out to give the two of you time to grow & mature. I may not have dozens of friends, but I'll take quality over quanity any day!


A friend loveth at all times; And a brother is born for adversity- Proverbs 17:17

It's my turn!!

 People confuse sacrifice with "using".  If I make a sacrifice to do something, it's because at some point I seek to gain something in return. That's human nature.  If you expect for me to sacrifice my time, energy, or money please understand this is only a short-term thing.  I do things because I can see the "bigger" picture and because I know my steps are ordered.  My success was not given, it was earned!  I absolutely love it when people make the assumption "you got it made".  I use to get upset, argue and try to convince them of how "hard" it is.  I now take an different approach and simply tell them how "easy" God is.  Throughout my struggles, I have found continuous, renewed strength through positive energy that only gets stronger daily.  I will not be used and will speak my mind with all honestly when warranted.  "It's my turn" to reap the benefits of my sacrifices.  It is so important for women, especially young women to "know your worth, accept nothing less, and don't let anyone tell you that you are worth less (worthless)."  After making those countless sacrifices, don't forget to stand up and say "it's my turn!"  (You're worth it!! )