My addiction.....

It starts off as a smell, a question, a look! These minor,insignificant details can easily be transformed into any addiction! Something you battle with, struggle against, & fight to overcome! No seduction necessary, it's on from day one! I'm sure I'm not the only one that makes this decision at first sight! Yes or no? Once you get past the point of being concerned with what someone else will think, the decision is usually simple. I guess Drake said it best when he asked "does waiting really make us better people?" When dealing with an addiction; intentions don't mean a thing! The things you say or even promise won't mean s$&*! You become consumed with "that thing" & if this goes unchecked it can destroy you!

Being responsible!

One of my favorite sayings is "you choose your own destiny, through the decisions that you make! So choose wisely with your heart, mind & soul!"I say this often to remind myself that I'm responsible for everything that happens to me. I find that, within my generation being responsible is the exception instead of the standard. It is super disturbing because I'm raising a son! A black male, in a world where people would rather play the victim as oppose to be accountable! How did this become the normal? Our parents clearly weren't raised like that. Does it start with chores, and the fear of God? This I'm not sure of but I'm willing to try because someone is depending in me to be successful & this is something I HAVE to be responsible for!

Oh u got an iPhone huh?!?

The debate is on! How do you spend your child support? Had to get these thoughts out w/o interuppption! Being someone who has been on both sides of this issue I think of things differently. There was a time when I did it all, every need or want, Mommy had to handle it! A question was asked "how do u have an iPhone? U using child support to buy phones?" This pisses me off for a number of reason....as a parent you are responsible for taking care of your child's needs & wants! I can't wait until the child support to come to feed our child, pay the mortgage, or go shopping for back to school so you're damn right I may "technically" use that money for something else! GET OVER IT! As a father if you know your child is being provided for properly- how dare u question me or get mad b/c I upgraded to an iPhone & your ass still has a metro! Neither one of these facts change that this is your child & you are responsible for providing too! Yes there are some suspect mommies out there just like some suspect daddies! Ultimately, there are deadbeats out there but don't judge me because I have nice things- my child is taken care of with or w/o tht change!!!

My reason.....

My first official blog! Sooo excited! I love to write and find that writing (along with music)makes me feel so much better!

I've been elated lately with the direction of my life. I give all credit to God and I'm sooo thankful. Recently, I've started dating! I've been hung up on "my type" including height,weight,& age requirements. Until recently, I didn't realize how that was holding me back! I decided to date someone who's older
(37), a lot shorter (5'8) & a little heavier than I'd prefer. In 1 month, God has used this guy to show me that my requirements don't mean a thing. He's reassured me that my "one" is out there and as long as I abandon my standards andvtrust His it will work out for the best! It's not up to me- God has plans for me & knows what I need better than me! We all have to seek something deeper.