Focus

As I continue on this journey I learn more and more about myself daily. Validation comes in many forms. Self,personal, professional, and spiritual to name a view. In dealing with the constant NEED for validation, it is easy to lose focus. My need to be "different" has been fueled for years by my insecurities. I can say now that my strength has come from moments like this. Moments where all i can do is turn to Him. There's strength in allowing yourself to be vulnerable. Some are more spiritual than others, however once you learn to communicate with God it becomes easy to hear HIM. We can choose to attempt to silence what we're hearing but it will become apparent in all that we do.
I've been struggling to find my purpose & praying for clarity often. As I begin to receive clarity, I became easily distracted with other, insignificant things or people. One by one God continues to remove the things out of my way (even when I didn't want to, or didn't view them as obstacles). He wants my attention & focus to be on my purpose.

One thing that I have to remember is that although we make choices, they simply determine how easy or hard it's going to be. Ultimately, my destiny has already been decided. So I bid good bye to the people & things that don't deserve my attention. I'm focused on my purpose & if that means I'm alone for a while then I'm truly ok with that!

As you were

It's amazing to me that sooo many people don't truly know themselves. They seek out certain qualities in others that they lack or don't understand. Someone who holds grudges seeks out someone who is forgiving. Someone who is a cheater seeks out someone who is faithful. Generally, there's nothing wrong with this! The problem presents itself when people choose to accept the bad qualities without question. I know several divorced "twenty-something" women. My initial response was of course "those no good men!" After further thought, I realized I knew several happily married "twenty something" women. What do I believe is the difference between 1 group & the other? Simply put it's knowing your self worth, accepting nothing less & not letting ANYONE tell you that you're worth less (worthless)! I understand now where I went wrong! Not saying that the things that went wrong in my marriage were totally my fault, but I do assume responsibility for not demanding the respect I deserve & choosing to be content in my comfort zone instead of challenging those questionable behaviors! Everything comes down to choice, responsibility, & consequences! Choose wisely, assume responsibility, and accept the consequences for those decisions (good or bad). We have to embrace the lessons that are presented out of every situation. And remember no trial in life is meant to leave you "as you were!"